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The day Michael Jackson died, he was injected with two anxiety medications, Lorazepam and Midazolam followed by the anesthetic Proprofol. But some reports also stated that the powerful painkillers, Demerol, Dilaudid and Vicodin were in his system, along with the muscle relaxant Soma, the antidepressants Zoloft and Paxil, the anxiety medication Xanax, and the heartburn pill Prilosec. Yet the official cause of death was ruled acute Proprofol intoxication.
Most are under the mistaken belief that Michael was addicted to anesthesia, but for anyone has become dependent on sleeping pills or anxiety medications, we already know how desperate we become for rejuvenating sleep.
6-1/2 years ago I quit a cocktail of sleeping pills and anxiety medications and felt my world implode. I've had 34 surgeries on my spine and legs and thought I was strong. But I was not prepared for the horrific withdrawals from these pills. For many months I questioned my sanity without any belief that I could regain my cognitive function or normal sleep patterns. I am a writer and I lost that magical connection to the written word. It was the blackest of times, filled with the deepest despair. And this is where I believe Michael Jackson found himself.
In 1984 Michael was injured while filming a Pepsi commercial and placed on painkillers, which led him into treatment. But in 1992 he was taking multiple sedatives, including Valium, Ativan and Xanax, and addiction to these medications (benzodiazepines) can rebound into horrific insomnia. They also increase pain, so when Jackson was injured during the Dangerous Tour, it wasn't surprising that by the mid-90s, he reportedly had an anesthesiologist traveling with him.
I was on these classifications of pills for ten years, and had I been given access to an anesthetic, I would have taken it for a few hours of rest. All I was seeking was a good night's sleep and instead I became trapped by medications I initially believed were my salvation. I firmly believe Michael found himself in the same chemical straightjacket.
In 1993, Michael admitted he was addicted to benzodiazepines (Xanax, Valium, Ativan) and went into drug treatment for a few months. But quitting benzodiazepines cold turkey can destroy sleep further and take many months to begin the healing process. Most will reinstate the pills because the withdrawals are too debilitating. By 2004 it was reported that Jackson was taking 20-40 Xanax a day.
My cocktail of medications were similar to Michael Jackson and Heath Ledger, and it saddens me greatly that they lost their lives to prescription drugs. How I lived through my debacle is a mystery, but it had such a profound impact that I began a non-profit organization to help others escape the clutch of this epidemic.
Ironically, mercury poisoning was the cause of my insomnia, but I would not discover this for many years. Instead, I became a willing participant to a chemical experiment that ripped through my world. Unfortunately the same is happening to millions of other people and often starts with insomnia.
The sleeping prescription pill market is an enormous industry and we are essentially supporting products that are slowly destroying us. I didn't know that forcing my brain into submission was not true sleep, but that natural sleep is a complex mechanism triggered by a group of hormones that create a state of rest for the body and mind.
As we sleep, consciousness is suspended while the brain undergoes a cycle of brainwave activity that includes dreaming. The heart and lungs slow and our normally active brainwave patterns diminish tremendously, until we dream. Our blood vessels dilate and the blood that is usually stored in our organs moves into our muscles for tissue repair. The growth hormone in children is secreted during sleep, as are critical chemicals that protect the immune system. So it is no surprise that children placed on stimulant medication have stunted growth and weakened immune systems. I had reoccurring bronchitis and pneumonia and even contracted a staph infection in withdrawal.
Natural sleep doesn't just support physical health, but has a profound effect on our brain as it organizes and archives memories. It is also essential to the creative process. Rolling Stones' guitarist Keith Richards claims the riff in "I Can't Get No Satisfaction" came to him in his sleep, while Dmitri Mendeleev, the 19th century chemist, said he literally dreamed the periodic table of elements.
During the night, we shift from the predominant NREM (non-rapid eye movement) dreamless sleep to short segments of REM (rapid eye movement) state where dreams occur. Both NREM and REM sleep cycles are necessary to have restorative effects. But sleep medications dramatically reduce the length of time we spend in the dream stage and instead keep us in a light dreamless sleep. To make matters worse, sleeping pills (Ambien, Lunesta) and benzodiazepines (Valium, Klonopin, Restoril, Xanax, Ativan) do not actually improve sleep, but rather create an amnesiac effect that make us forget we are waking up. Unfortunately, most of us misinterpret this state as deeper sleep. The longer we take the pills; even the dreamless sleep shortens in duration and leads to deeper exhaustion and anxiety. To compound matters, sleeping pills only induce sleep an average of 12 minutes quicker and 30 minutes longer than without them. But chemical dependency can occur within three consecutive nights of use, causing painful rebound insomnia, raging anxiety, and memory impairment.
Many people add herbs and over-the-counter medications in an attempt to gain a few hours of needed rest. It is not that herbs are dangerous-that is a misconception. But most people do not realize there is risk of a serious interaction when sleep medications are combined with items like passionflower, valerian, or antihistamines. Sleeping pills and benzodiazepines accentuate the GABA neurotransmitter, which keeps the nerve cells in the lung tissue from firing. That is why sleeping pills combined with over-the-counter medications or herbs that accentuate GABA or intensify the effect of the pills will overly suppress respiration, causing asphyxiation. This is what killed Heath Ledger.
And combining sleeping pills with other medications can stop the breathing; cause a coma or cause cardiac arrest. This is what killed Michael Jackson.
But GABA doesn't just affect the lungs. It is an amino acid that naturally occurs in our nervous system. There are approximately 45 million GABA receptors in the body, and 75 percent are affected by sleeping pills and benzodiazepines. GABA regulates our sleep cycles, body temperature, muscles, and all hormone functions of the body. It's no wonder the withdrawals from these drugs are deemed the most challenging-even more than heroin or cocaine. I remember clearly wishing I had been an illegal drug addict, as the cold-turkey withdrawals would have passed quickly. The only safe way to withdraw from these medications is through a gradual taper, one that allows the brain and body a chance to adjust at each level of reduction.
It wasn't my path to have an easy withdrawal, and I firmly believe the reason was to help address this epidemic of pill usage. I've worked with people from all over the world who are addicted to these medications. Most are taking one or two prescriptions and suffering the same intensity of symptoms I did on a cocktail of drugs. I realized long ago that any dose of sleep medication is dangerous.
In spite of the fact that I made every step of my medication journey improperly, I also made it back to complete health. I no longer suffer from pain, anxiety, or insomnia. My sleep patterns have returned, and at the age of 52, I feel better than I have in 20 years. You see, what I've also realized is that our bodies are amazing machines with a symphony of chemicals that yearn to be healthy. It has a remarkable capacity to heal if given the right nutrients.
I have chosen to help people in their darkest hour, but I also get the privilege of watching them regain what I now have - my freedom.
